Memory is a wonderful thing, if you don’t have to deal with the past.
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People just have an affaire, or even… entire relationships…
They break up and they forget!
They move on like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!
I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with.
Because each person have… you know, specific qualities.
You can never replace anyone.
What is lost is lost.
Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me.
I haven’t fully recovered.
That’s why I’m very careful with getting involved, because…
It hurts too much!
I will miss of the person the most mundane things.
Like I’m obsessed with little things.
Maybe I’m crazy, but…
You can never replace anyone,
because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.
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Like, I… I’m a strong independent woman in my professional life.
I don’t need a man to feed me,
but I still need a man to love me,
and that I could love, you know.
So… I was thinking…
For me it’s better I don’t romanticize things as much anymore.
I was suffering so much all the time.
I still have lots of dreams, but they’re not in regard to my love life.
It doesn’t make me sad, it’s just the way it is.
Is that why you’re in a relationship with somebody who’s… never around?
Yes, obviously, I can’t deal with the day to day life of a relationship.
Yeah, we have, you know,
this exciting time together and then he leaves and I miss him,
but at least I’m not dying inside.
When someone is always around me,
I’m like suffocating! It’s a disaster…
I mean, I’m really happy only when I’m on my own.
Even being alone…
it’s better than… sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely.
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It reminded me how… genuinely romantic I was,
how I had so much hope in things and… now it’s like…
I don’t believe in anything that relates to love,
I don’t feel things for people anymore. In a way…
I put all my romanticism into that one night and
I was never able to feel all this again.
Like… somehow this night took things away from me and…
I expressed them to you and you took them with you!
It made me feel cold, like if love wasn’t for me!
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I… I don’t believe that.
I don’t believe that.
You know what?
Reality and love are almost contradictory for me. It’s funny…
